Talking Outloud

I have been talking outloud for a while now because I want to hear my thoughts.  It is a bit embarrassing when I do that though because I believe it is view as not normal to talk to yourself in public all by yourself.  I chuckle a lot when I am talking outloud and having a conversation all by myself in a public place because I believe I appear very weird to everyone around me.  Maybe even a lunatic.  I wish someone would actually look at me and ask if I know I am talking outloud so I can explain to them that yes I am aware (it's just that everyone else is already preoccupied with someone or something else and I do not know any of the strangers around me). 

"Awkward!" 

"I know!"

I miss the class clown.

Sorry, I digress.

Another reason I talk outloud is because I need to concentrate while everyone else around me is chatting and having a conversation.  Therefore I need to block out their conversation so I can continue thinking about what I need to think about.

Reading outloud is similar.  For example, let's say I am reading on the subway, I lose concentration, I read a little louder in my head, still cannot get back into the reading, I re-read the same sentence a little louder with hums sounds (but not actually uttering the word) until I am able to concentrate fully and continue to read silently again.

This thinking outloud occurs at work sometimes because I have to explain the document I am writing to myself so it make sense.  The paperwork can get very confusing.  By the time I get to meet with someone to talk about the progress of my work, I ask questions that I am still not sure about.  I feel very happy when I catch my own mistakes and the person I am confirming with agrees that I put in the wrong information or that I am still missing the information.