Good deed of the day

Last night, I remembered a past time.  It happened on a subway ride home.  I believe I was on my way home with my mother and my friend from some recreational class.

I was seated happily with my friends and saw three extremely elderly person boarding.  I got up and offered my seat to the person who appeared to be the most senior .  The youngest of the three responded instead with a "Why, Thank you" and proceeded happily to take my  seat.  After that my friend also offered their seats .  Eventually, all three of them sat down.

They were so old but I remember how all three of them looked like.  At least slightly.  I was either in kindergarten, grade one or two at the time.  It's a precious memory.

Let us talk

My mother is someone who enjoys learning and socializing; therefore, last night, I attended a Mental Health workshop because she invited me to one.  I think it is pretty safe to say that we are not each other's favourite person to socialize with although we socialize with each other a lot.  I accepted her invitation because I have rejected many of her invitations and it is a horrible feelings to say no to the woman who has given you life and maintained it since you were born.  She drives me crazy because she is observant yet not! Or she never understands or learn what she has observed about me and talking or explaining only lead to more questions.  I have accepted that is how she communicate, she asks but she may not be listening and even if she is, she will forget my answer.

  I digress.

Yesterday, the speaker prepared some slides.  One of them read: "Speak to someone. Get the help you need."

For myself, the help I got by speaking with  someone was no help at all but that was the help I needed.  It just depends on how long it takes someone to realize, the person who can help you the most is you.  A helping hand can only do so much.  Yes, it pains me to see you "suffer" but, seriously, I don't know how to pull you out of "misery".  What works for me may not work for you.

By speaking with someone, you will see how different people respond when you need help.  You will become more understanding of people's reaction. 

Spoiler alert!

For myself, I am no longer sad that no one knows how to help you and most even pushes you away.  That is normal.  However, I am sad that people tend to laugh at the person who needs help immediately after seeing such a person for the first time ever.  Making fun of someone or something you do not know how to handle is usually people's reaction when they are fearful of something.  That is one of the dramatic reacter's response.  Another common dramatic response is the concerning person response.  The concerning person will be someone claiming to be an expert and everyone will follow the leader.  The leader is always dramatic because ego is involved for sure whenever you are leading.

Turning back to my mother, I accepted her invitation because I am familiar with the topic.  The more familiar you are with something the heavier it is when you speak about it.  You don't ask questions lightly.  That is why I rarely ask questions.

Evolution of Technology and Internet

I am starting to like the internet less and less.  I miss the days, when the internet was mostly texts with minimal photographs, images, sounds and etc.

Anywhere I go now, it's filled with photos and colours and etc.  I have my devices set to mute at all times just to at least shut one part of input off.  I guess because users have control over audio, that's why a lot of website try to be as visually engaging as possible.

A lot of the places that I used to visit were volunteered run.  I believe because those were passion and hobby projects, they are made differently because they are not maintaining a site for money or to keep a job.  They get to design something for themselves that they hope people would like to use.

An example, I would use would be the disappearance of distributuon of fansub anime with the introduction and monopoly of the anime world by crunchyroll in the online north american market that is now the official source you goto to see the latest anime with dub or sub thus wiping out the unofficial distribution process.  I am guessing maybe the volunteers migrated over to be paid and have to listen to management thus there is less personal distribution flavour now.  There is just this one place you goto and that's it.  I mean how can the volunteer not be part of the service, they are and were the source.  Maybe even the viewers became lazy and no longer go look at written reviews and previews.

Remember the days when you have to go look at the listing, and then research about the show and then make sure you have the correct software installed in your computer and then download the show and then you can finally watch the show?  If you were like me, you would even have video editors installed in your computer so  you can make a copy of your favourite shows to for storage  purposes, it's similar to taping a show on VHS and skipping all the commercials, introduction and ending songs.  Those days are now gone. Full service and all at premium price!  Open source is no more in the distribution of anime.  Even I knew how to use mIRC just so I can get my show faster than everyone else and not have to share!

I've stopped watching anime since crunchyroll started rolling around partly because my lifestyle changed and partly because I could not find anime I want to watch anymore.  I am no longer a student and a lot of anime is about the wonderful life of a high school student.  My high school life was very different from what was depicted in animes.  I did not fall in love, I was not crushing on nobody and nobody was crushing on me.  Some Anime are very romantic.   There was never a hero in highschool who would fight for someone else.  Basically all the things that you wish existed or happened in the real world existed or happened in the anime.  In real life, make sure you try to be your own hero each and every day.

There are also anime that depicts real world problems in a comedic way.  I really love the exegeration an animator can extend to a character which is enhanced more by the voice actor.  I have always prefer sub over dub because I want to hear from the original source even if I did not understand the language.  I believe some expressions you just cannot translate.

Anyhow, it's nice to think about anime.  Maybe I will start a blog writing my thoughts on all the animes I have watched and what I liked about them.

Aerobic Chaos

Aerobic Chaos is and can be chaotic.  Sometimes people would announce they are doing an aerobic chaos but they do not chaotic at all, other times people would not announce they are doing an aerobic chaos but they are extremely chaotic.  Aerobic chaos is not a literary term nor is it an oxymoron.

Today, I wrote a one page letter that I was originally pretty happy with.  Unfortunately, I was disrupted by an intercom and closed my first finalized draft without saving.  When I rewrote my draft, a significant portion of it was missing.  It was very upsetting.

World Back Up Date

While reading a magazine, I learnt that the last day of this month is World Backup Date.   Most of the stuff I have does not require a back up.  When you are backing up this year, think about if you don't back up whatever you back up, would you even remember what it was? Do you even really need to back it up whatever you are backing up?

For me, if I was to attend to backing up, I just need to goto a dollar store to see the notebooks available and do my own simple back up notes.  The dollar store has many different types of notebooks, one might be of better use than others depending on the purpose.

My first Polar Rush

My first Polar Rush was very fun!  I believe there are no rules except to follow the marked trail which means you can do the obstacles any way you want.  I was pretty creative with how I tackled and concurred each obstacle they presented on my way to the finish line.  I wish I ran more but my body is still injured so it would have been too painful and tormenting to run.  Sadly, because I could not run my time suffered.

After a nice warm shower and some food in my stomach, I now feel refreshed.

What I like about Polar Rush is that the mud is hidden beneath the snow and frozen which means you cannot get muddy.  Yet, at times, the snow acts like Mud.  There were quite a few times when I was knee deep in snow. I enjoyed sliding the hill whenever I could!