As a child, I enjoyed listening to the sounds of the rain. Things you've liked as a child doesn't really change. A very memorable poem I had to memorize was "rain rain go away, come again another day!". I had fun chanting that but I think I'll chant that wholeheartedly only if it's been raining heavily for 72 hours non stop and the condition prior to the heavy rain was not a drought.
I digress. As the drafting of this posting, it is raining and I just can't help but express my love for the rain.
I started writing a play a while ago but it's hard for me to pen it. It will be too long and scattered and probably not enough dialogue. I guess I am stuck. If I revisit it, I'll probably just edit what I already wrote which is really just a waste of time. I want to continue the story not edit the introduction.
Recently, I have been fed a lot of bad things that have happened to meeting people on the internet. It is a bit annoying because my experience with meeting strangers from the internet has been quite normal, random and pleasant.
As a high schooler, I had no intention of ever meeting anyone I encounter on the internet. I never posted photos of myself, I speak with people for a long time (we actually had conversations), I don't tell them exactly where I live but I might tell them approximately on a big plot of land where I may live so they would tell me the same thing. Once I have established that you are way too far for me to travel to and vice versa, we can finally hang out on the world wide web and travel together in the virtual world. We might meet many years later, never meet or eventually lose contact but, at least, we kept each other company for a period of time. Even on the internet, people still judge you the same way. Some people on the internet said I had no life. It's partly true but when I think deeper into it, I had a life, it was just different. Another way to look at it is that I protected myself from people that were not nice to me but I might see everyday. I chose to not socialize too much in high school because there was at least a small group of people that was extremely cruel and mean to me for no reason or a very small reason that was never explained to me (I took my guesses). I moved myself away from the potential of more unpleasant experiences by being very unreactive to anything they did. Luckily, those people were of no importance so I don't have to interact with them at all. If I did have to interact with them, I made sure it was as minimal as possible and only for group projects where I am assigned randomly to be part of their team. I didn't want to dwell on how they affected me and high school was only four years.
As I grew older, I finally met some people from the internet but the difference between this and my high school internet travels is that I state clearly at the beginning that I intend to meet but we may not meet. It's more fun when you don't know how the other person look like at all but at the same time you are scared of offending the person when you meet in person and just find that person totally boring or unattractive or whatever or too different from me and vice versa.
In life there are unpleasant situations, you always have to work towards them to change it. The bigger the problem the longer it takes to fix. I tackle my problems daily and slowly. People let me take my own time because it's so small that they don't even know there was a problem when it's solved. Sometimes people create their own problems when there's no problem at all.
At school there's always an answer for things that are taught and tested. Those skills could be used in real life where you really have to come up with your own answers. You had trouble with figuring out percentages? That could be a big problem and really hinder your future. The dude that is always right may actually be wrong. That dude that is always wrong may actually be right. Knowing at least the basic would be nice.
Anyways rambling again. #old
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