Mundane life of an introvert.

I have been feeling disconnected from society for a while now.   Sure,  communication devices and services are easily accessible anywhere in cities and towns for an arguably reasonable price.   However, these devices have too many functions and are misused all the time.   Do people really have to be connected 24/7?  Do I really need to be bombarded with updates?  Is there really anything to talk about when you see your "friend" in person again.  Sometimes,  I even wonder if it is you posting or your significant other posting for you.  Lastly,  I feel like there are surveillance cameras everywhere.

Gone, are the feelings of tranquility and peace.

I'm an introvert, social gathering sucks the life of of me.   Now with all these social media,  I am starting to feel like I can't breath.  Yes,  everyone post positively online especially on your friend's page but who knows what they are really saying off the page.  I can't feel badly about my situation because I'm constantly reminded by someone that someone has it worse than me.  I no longer share my little successes or victories because when I do share those moments the same way my "friends" do,  I am made to feel that no one cares or that my achievements are not achievements at all.

I no longer know how to communicate in person or not in person anymore.   I'm used to being ignored or invisible.  When I post something somewhat "public", it's really just for myself because no one cares about what I have to say or by the time I can finally say something, I'm so tired from listening to all of you that I have nothing to say or add anymore.  That and the topic got changed so many times that I don't know where we are anymore.

Yes, everyone loves talking but no one likes to listen.   I am also tired of people telling me to listen.   I listen and gets interrupted or cut off all the time when its my turn to talk.

If I lived alone,  I wonder how long my body will have to rot before someone realize I'm dead.  Afterall, I cannot post an update about my passing after I have passed.

Ces't la vie!  Mundane life.   This rant is something I'm still working on.  I write and share photos because I want to remember and not because I want to be remembered.